I have gone from one extreme to the other. A few months ago, I was unhappy in my new flat. I was lonely and sad and all that crap with a Jerk with nice hands just threw me for a loop. Now, I have no space to breathe, but I have a smile on my face.
I have surrounded myself with so many people, said yes to so many things, and made myself so busy that what is really nice, is some quiet time. My diary has been full most days for weeks, I can’t complain. I complain about being bored otherwise.
On Wednesday, my friend is coming to live with me. This weekend, I had an emergency call from a friend whose situation has changed and she needs somewhere to crash now and then. I got another kitten. That will be three of us (two most days, three some days) and two cats, in what is actually a pretty small one bedroom flat.
I’m a little worried that i’m unprepared for living with my friend. I like my home comforts, I like things to be just so, I have to have things tidy… let’s just hope I don’t tidy her away in a little box. I’ve got used to living by myself since I came back from my holiday. I have my routine and my freedom and my space. Will I be ok sharing it?
Having a single friend living with me does however mean more nights out, more fun, more boys and probably more falling down and giving myself a bit of a concussion – yep, managed to fall over and smack my head on the pavement. Drinking shots with boys, not a good idea but a mistake I make time and time again.
I have relented in the face of Freckles the Postman’s apparent eagerness and said yes to a date. Dating is not really my thing right now…but he says nice things, I find it hard to say no!
I am spinning round and round and round on a merry-go-round in my head….at the moment I’m squealing with delight… but I can see myself running out of breath soon, I hope I don’t get too dizzy.
As Take That so wonderful said, everything changes but you.
Aside: Wow this post is muddled, really sorry about that. Perhaps it just reflects the state of my brain at the moment, I think I whacked a fair few brain cells out.