I’m unsure what to say about my hypnotherapy appointment last night. Every time I try to think how to explain it…well, I can’t.
I went for my confidence. I have none, and never have had. I pretend well, even some of my good friends think i’m confident. We had a talk first, about me and how I feel in social situations and meeting new people – this is where my confidence is at its lowest. She’s a wiley fox though, she somehow got me to talking about my Nan and when she died. I was only 13 which is obvisouly a crutial time in your development, especially of emotions…she suggested that the trauma of that at such a delicate age almost put a stop to my growing confidence, and funnily enough, that makes complete sense.
I found it difficult to relax, it took her a while to get me there…I’m still not even sure if I was or not. You’re aware, it’s not like being asleep. You know where you are and what they are saying, you still think your own thoughts but your body is completely relaxed – my muscles were so relaxed, I couldn’t move them.
Then it’s just like following the voice down a path, taking on the suggestions they make and visialising the things they say to you. I think at some points, I was far too relaxed – I find it hard to relax usually and I think my body was just so grateful, it kept sutting off and I was missing bits of what she said, my mind was going other places.
She talked to me of how to be confident when I meet new people, not to internalise and just to be so interested in getting to know them. This was through various methods and a fair bit of guidance.
Then, she made me meet my Nan, and Grandad…to see how happy they are now, to know that they are ok and that it’s alright to move on and start now to begin to develop that confidence that stopped so long ago. This bit was tough. I almost lost it.
Anyhow. It’s not a ‘click and you’re done’ situation. My confidence will now, hopfully continue to grow. I’m standing up straighter and I have smiled a lot, which is not something I have been at all conscious of doing, I haven’t made that decision, it’s just happened, so I guess something went down.
I might go back for a second session, where she will teach me self-hypnosis so I can continue the work myself.
All I would say is that it’s worth a try. Don’t be sceptical, go in there with a willingness to believe that this might have a positive impact and just be open minded… you could walk out a different person.